"Thank you again for teaching me strength. Hopefully it will lead me to a greater trust."

"You must be wondering why I never write as much as I did before during Christmas break. Well I don't really have a reason and I can't make one up. I think its just a bit of inconsistency with me and all but you never believe me."
"Never want to be different when you are a star... You know, I kind of attribute this search for omniscience to you... I may not always seem like I am around or there but you must consider me a friend and realize that I will be here and there busy with the world."

"I feel like you are suffocating me. I feel guilty for being myself around you now and it makes me feel bad.”

"My intolerance for you lies in myself, I admit that... The reason I keep telling you to give up is that I think that if you do, one day I might be able to feel like hanging out with you again. But my point is that you shouldn't hope for this because hoping proves my point that you have allowed part of yourself to become dependent upon me."
"Ya, you're unique, but so is everyone. Maybe I got bored with your uniqueness and maybe I don't care anymore."

"If you're looking for an honest, non-superficial relationship now, I'm not sure that I can offer you one. And let me remind you that I never agreed to one in the first place... I'm so very tired of you trying to build a friendship with me.”
"I am willing to lie to you... And I don't feel guilty--not in the least... I've decided to take complete control--no one shall have a say in my life but me. If you have anything to say about it and if you continue to do so in such a banal, repetitive manner, I will cancel my [...] and yahoo accounts.”

"This is not an attempt at friendship... I'm sorry that I don't enjoy hanging out with you anymore. I think that I may have prolonged my discomfort with "the way things used to be" and never told you that on a level I did not want to share so much with you. Although there may have been "good" times, there were also "bad" ones.”

"It's unlikely but possible that my end with you will upset things with you and Noah. Fear of some external punishment is going to cause me to think twice about this."

"And the fact that you care about me makes not difference because I DON'T want to deal with you. YOU overvalue the relationship. You turn it all to shit by screwing with the way it is to be perceived... That's why I will never want to deal with you."

"You can't be anything close to me--understand this. I wish I knew of a word to make you leave me alone... I don't want what ever it is you thought we had before. I give you a superficial, ingenuine relationship--that's all I'm willing to offer you."

"I think because you are different from people and don´t have much superficiality to you, it´s difficult to find others with whom you can be friends. I have a similar problem but less so because I have much more of this superficial characteristic than you do."

"I am glad that you will get used to me not being around because that's reality. I am not always around for you or do not always want to be around you. The good thing is that I am around sometimes and do still help you."

"I still feel as if I can't commit as much to the relationship as you want me to. I don't really want to return to the past, period. But I also realized yesterday that a return is impossible. And that makes me happy because I can be myself without worrying as much."

"I know you've been obsessed with me since freshman year... It doesn't bother me until you start screaming in my face that I can't be the kind of person you want or do the kinds of things you would like me to do. And it is especially annoying when you hold me erroneously to every word I've ever written in order to justify your claims and hypotheses... The things I'm observing from you now are the ravings of pathetic failure that sound like some woodland creature foaming at the mouth with rage because someone stole its biscuit."

"Space makes me write to you, meaning now that we're states away from each other I feel comfortable engaging you. No doubt that makes you angry... I expect an awkward relationship at first, that's for sure."

"I'll write to you in my zone of comfort. If you fail to reply, fine. If you refuse e-mails, that's your business."

"I imagine us flying together one day, even though I want to vow never to get on another plane again. I imagine myself with a group of friends boarding a flight to embark on an adventure somewhere."

"I would have told you that we're going to get through this. I know it seems dark now and I know that dull, distracting, soul-crushing pain very well... It will get better, not necessarily because of fate, but because we say so. I say so and I refuse to let either of us live pain like this."

"I guess it's good that you feel sad about [...] because it shows that you're still sensitive."

"Your email was thoughtful. You still have great sense. I knew when I opened your e-mail I would read something I would enjoy."

"Yes, fierce tiger, you have great points."

"I [am] glad by what you wrote. It didn't taste as harsh as I though it would; your wisdom is some kind of elixir."

"Have you not written because I haven't?"

"I mainly want to apologize about not talking to you on AIM on monday. "

"You always have one mind on this side of the country to engage; still, I understand that it becomes painful when I fail to write for long periods of time."
"I know EXACTLY what your jealousy is like; I felt it when you had your dates with Dave. The obvious difference between you and I is that I can set my expectations lower."

"I'm going to put $1000 dollars in a savings account. It'll be a vacation fund... Don't plan anything yet, but brainstorm."

"I have an idea you and I can work on for next semester that might help both of us (with what I'm not sure)."

"I don't know why I'm contacting you through this medium, but I least I know whether or not you've been online."

"I realize we still have a disagreement about certain things, but I wanted to say hi anyway. I never considered signs before, but I found the description of librans really inaccurate. You're not social or romantic, and I'd say you're more intellectual than artistic."

"I'm just writing to make sure everything is ok."

"You want to hear more about how I'm a jerk and the worst being you know. Well, I don't know how to be your friend. I don't think I'll ever be confident to say that I could measure up to your standards."
"your friendship does mean much to me. I've just run out of juice fighting you. I also hate who I become when I fight. And you're not the only friend who I feel I have to fight to keep (at a distance, sometimes). So the terrible me who turned you away is the same terrible me who's getting by today."

"I want to continue to talk to you; however, friendship with you is strained. When I first started talking to you, I thought you were cold and intelligent. That's what I liked about you."

"I am a little bit relieved that you are getting frustrated, only because it means you still have those principles you advocated so many years ago."

"I'm going to visit Steve... My plan is to surprise him there, but I'm really nervous. We should talk and strategize."

"I can't believe you're this close and I can't just hop a plane and visit... I think I'm changing and I want to talk to you more about that."

"I'm not worried these days about you invading my privacy. In fact, it'd be interesting to see you hack my account to rearrange my profile, like someone breaking into a home to rearrange furniture. I wonder how different it would look if you were shaping things."

"I'm still so pissed I missed your wedding. Someday, money will be less of an issue."

"Thank you so much for caring, and for writing, and for struggling."

"It does not feel like a friendship when you attack me. It also feels uncomfortable when you write me a poem that compares me to your husband. That comparison suggests I'm more than a friend, equal or superior (in your eyes) to a husband. I want to be a friend, but am I that for you? Or am I more? I don't wish to be more than a friend."
"You and I claim we don't get respect from one another for various reasons. I guess you say I don't respect you because of these boundaries, and I say you don't respect me because you overstep boundaries."

"If you're trying to write me off because it's too painful to try to be friends with me, then say that."